JUjUbeE: Oh, forgot the attachment, hold on.

JUjUbeE: Holy shit. My eyes ARE bleeding.

Roguey: He said all the right things. I can’t compete against that.

JUjUbeE: That IS a cute picture.

JUjUbeE: What right things?

Roguey: He asked us to go skating. He was so good with Maggie, you see the photographic evidence, she had the time of her life, he didn’t break my heart, he didn’t growl at me, and he didn’t leave for a five-year period.

JUjUbeE: And this is a problem because?

Roguey: We had an actual conversation. He told me what he’d done when he was gone. J, you should see the way he looks at me. And OMG, I fell asleep while we were watching Clerks and I was laying with my head on his lap and I woke up and he was just doing this THING with his fingers in my hair. Whimper.

JUjUbeE: like i said, this is a problm cause...?

JUjUbeE: what sort of thing with your hair?

Roguey: It’s a problem because, hello, I’m fucking terrified. I can’t deal with this again.

Roguey: I can’t deal with another rejection in my life.

Roguey: He was stroking my hair, tracing the white streaks, just... I can’t describe it, so gently. It was- shudder. And he almost kissed me, we came so close, but... we just held each other. Oh, god.

JUjUbeE: Has it occurrd to you that maybe your time has come? and that you’re getting everything you’ve been dying for all these years?

Roguey: Well, duh, yeah, but...

JUjUbeE: You’re scared.

JUjUbeE: Have you just told him that you’re scared? I mean, since you two appear to be able to have an actul converstaion without growling or impalement or five year absences and stuff?

Roguey: Hell yeah, I’m terrified!

Roguey: Yes, actually I did tell him.

Roguey: And he said - I’m trying to remember his exact words but it was something like his goal was to gain my trust. So I guess he knows that he hasn’t exactly earned it thus far.

JUjUbeE: Well chicka it sounds like hes finally stepping up to the plate, does it not?

JUjUbeE: (Duh.)

Roguey: It does, and I believe him. I mean, it’s not his sincerity that I doubt. I have too much of him in my head to not be able to tell the difference.

Roguey: I’m afraid he’s gonna stare at Jean next time we’re all together. I’m afraid that the next time he freaks out, he’s gonna run again and leave me holding the pieces. I’m afraid that Maggie’s gonna fall in love with him too and then he’s gonna leave her heartbroken too.

JUjUbeE: well, tht’s good, anyway

Roguey: And I’m afraid, because let’s face it, every time I’ve gotten close to someone something catastrophic has happened.

JUjUbeE: That was before you had control. Honey, you didn’t bust your ass to control your skin for nothing!

JUjUbeE: All of this hypothtical shit is a moot point. you’re falling in love with him all over again but you have all these fears so you’re completely powerless. You can’t control what he does, you can only control yourself. but you said it yourself, all you can do is give him a chance to make you trust him. As long as you don’t take any shit from him, there’s nothing else you can do.

Roguey: Sigh

Roguey: I am SO falling in love with him, Ju. Sigh.

JUjUbeE: Well I’m happy for you. I’m sick of watching you mope around and you know what, I see the way he looks at you. He’s falling in love with you too.

Roguey: You really think so?

Roguey: Since when do you do telepathy? ;)

JUjUbeE: I know so.

JUjUbeE: Since never, smartass, I have eyes. Go get Jean to read his mind. She’ll tell you.

Roguey: Somehow I think that might upset her sense of ethics. But anyway, thanx for the perspective. What would I do without you?

JUjUbeE: You’re welcome

JUjUbeE: Umm, pour your heart out to One Eye? ;)

Roguey: Hey, there’s actually some truth to that, Scott’s been a good friend

JUjUbeE: Oh, and speaking of, you might wanna wait to tell Logan about your little graduation party incident.

Roguey: Oh fuck, he’ll be gone for ten years this time!

JUjUbeE: LOL. Boogersnot. Like he has any right to get all salty. Bet he wasn’t celibate for five years!

JUjUbeE: Well listen, gotta go dad wants to use the compooter.

Roguey: Kay. Thanx for listening to me rant, sug. I am serious I dunno what I’d do without you.

JUjUbeE: Any time. Like I said, your time has come. Enjoy it.

Roguey: Hi to the folks for me.

JUjUbeE: See you in a few days.

Roguey: I will.

Roguey: Bye

Rogue turned off the computer. She’d discussed this, pined over this, enough. She needed to get out of the house.